I Found My Heart

Everything Changes

by

Matthew T. Lipson

2.5 : I Found My Heart

San Francisco is said to be a magical place.   For me, it is a place of renewal.  I have lived in Los Angeles, Portland, and other cities around the west coast.  San Francisco renews me, energizes me.  There are times I feel the city by the bay is done with me and I am done with it.  Then something happens.  In this case it helped open my eyes to what I had imprisoned within myself -- the ability to connect, desire to have a partner once again in my life.  Nothing comes without a price, of course.  The pain experienced, still experiencing, is deep.  This feeling is important.  Pain is the price of living.  Working with it, through it, will make me grow, as I learn more about myself.  I don't want to go back to where I was before.  Before I wasn't looking or open to connecting with another human being.  People were hurt along the journey, outside of myself.  This is something I will carry with me and wish hadn't happened.  I do not regret where it has brought me -- back to the eyes of the child seeing San Francisco for the first time.